The beach

People swarm onto the beach
Walking through the sand as a lady runs down the beach tackling her towel
Sand between the toes
Children building sandcastles
People leaving early for home

A bird finding its nest in the nearby tree
the waves crashing over the rocks unexpectedly
Sand gripping to me as I liberally apply my sunscreen

The sun sets as people pick their things up and leave
I drag my lilo out into the sea
When no ones around
No one can disturb me

Climb onto the rocks on the highest point
sticking my middle finger in the air
Im free
I dont care

Murky waters

Why just dip your toe in when you can dive in and get the whole feeling?

Just breathe in even though what your seeing, you still don't believe in.

I still love you,and im still grieving

On all the memories that I pretended died when I realised I had to leave you.

Im still in the deep end 

But I know someday I'll be living the life ive always dreamed of.

In the shallow end

But for now im still in the murky waters,with the dead fishes,regrets and my heart which is not blood red. See-through.

Like the mirror I stare at only my eyes in.

My eyes are the only things that matter anymore

They carry the drive, how i am and how im feeling.

what my emotions are.

<3

Just One Bottle.

Never kills you
Never harms you
But always calms you
Emotionally barred you
From sleeping to missing classes
Skip work "off sick" "man flu"
Many excuses you can use
Trying to keep sanity inside of you
Go to the pub
Trying to act cool to impress the group
(Didn't need to try that much 'cos they were pissed out of their minds too)
People thinking
Stupid bastards
Drunken fools
All this aggro over one bottle
Beer,and maybe just a cheeky bit of vodka too.

This Kind Of Love.

I just wanted to say how much I loved you and now that we're through,how much I still love you and generally care about you.

I never thought I would meet a person who is as kind as sweet or as smart as you.You helped me to realise so many things.You taught me to believe in myself and to never give in.You accepted all my weaknesses and made me smile that's what I will never forget,'cos damn,those memories will last for a long while.

Now this kind of love I have stops me from hating you,this kind of love accepts who you are and sometimes I do wonder if i will ever get back what we had ,but then again the some kind of love we had is now not important,over and gone,I can move on now so bye,be gone.

I will never know why you thought we weren't right for each other but I don't care.oh and next time you get with a girl think about her feelings more,and not your hair. I never want to know if you still care.because im still here for you and I think that's what's best for us.


<3

The woman in red

She strides into the room
with her nails her lipstick and her high heeled shoes.
She's got your attention.she's your immediate muse,I can see from the corner of your eye that your watching her and she's watching you.
I realise that she finds an interest in you,but also realising the long forgotten past and the irrelevence of getting back with him too.
she gives him the light brush off,and realises he's still trying to hold her gaze.but she cant take his blue eyes staring at her .she screams do I fucking even know you?
The denial on her tongue as she pulls it in and closing her mouth shut.
Draws it all in.